Man cannot remake himself without suffering, for he is both the marble and the sculptor.

Well, today is day 2. Day 2 of what you ask? Day 2 of my attempt to try and sculpt my body into the slimmer me that I know has been hiding inside of me for years. So, me and a co-worker (I need to be more careful what I say around her for now on!) joined a workout place. She had been talking about it for some time and I knew that I needed to get my fat ass back to exercising, so I told her that if she did decide to do it, to let me know and I would do it with her. Well she took me up on my word. I didn't think that anybody really listened to me. I need to be more careful of what I say to her now. I may get myself into something I may regret later!

I'm never one to do things slowly. I've opted for the 5 days a week workout instead of the 3 days. No pain, no gain, right! Right now I'm only doing the 30 minute workout. I figure after doing 30 minutes for a month I can then move onto an hour. I'm hoping that my body can catch up for that by then. Although right now my body is telling me, "Bitch! What in the hell do you think gives you the right to abuse me this way! Give me a cigarette!" I'm a lot more out of shape than I thought I was. Damn! This is going to be a bit of a chore for the first month. I can see that I am going to have to push myself a little bit harder than normal.

I just need to remember to stay focused on what I want to accomplish. I think...no, I KNOW, that this is a good thing for me. I'll be 37 at the end of the month and I hate feeling like shit all the time, and tired. I'm not quite over the hill yet, but I know that I am still just a little bit too young to be so damned tired all the time.

No regrets!

Time to give up the cigarettes again. And hopefully for the last time! I quite over 4 years ago, cold turkey, only to start back up again just before the new year. What in the hell was I thinking! Another one of my stupid mistakes. Time to start fixing all what is wrong in my life. Damn, am I gonna have enough time in this lifetime to do that!? Well, it's worth a shot...

Lack of activity destroys the good condition of every human being, while movement and methodical physical exercise save it and preserve it. ~Plato