It's a baby girl! Well, I can dream...

On Saturday I drove into Livermore to my friend Ducky's. She was having a jewelry party. I'm not into jewelry, but I went so I could just hang out with her and her friends. It's been awhile since I had last seen my Ducky. I love hanging out with Ducky and all her family. Although I do get a bit depressed when I'm hanging out with her. Ducky has two beautiful children, Logan and Skylar. Logan I think is 5 now and Skylar is 3 and is just the cutest damned thing. And pure Pork! I brought my digital camera with me, well more like I carry it in my purse at all times. Never know when a picture op is going to jump out at ya, like on Saturday. These were just a couple of the shots that Skylar posed for. You can't help but fall in love with Skylar, just look at that face! The one with her puckering up had me dying from laughter. She's a big ham this one is!

I've always wanted to have a little girl. There is a cycle in our family that I want to break. The mothers in this family don't get along with the daughters. My Grammy didn't get along with her mother, my mother doesn't get along with Grammy. Then there is me and my mom. Only difference with my mom and me is that I know that my mom loves me, but she never really learned how to talk to me, we are not close at all. She was quite young when she had me, still just a young girl herself, so that didn't help either. But I know that my mom did the best with what she was given to her by Grammy. It's hard to show love if you yourself weren't shown the love that you needed to help you grow. My baby brother though, that is a different story. He and my mom are very close. The women in this family love their baby boys! And at 19 (I know, hardly a baby, but he will always be my baby brother!) he is good kid. Spoiled like you would never believe, but a good kid. He just needs to find a job!

Statistically I should have followed in my moms footsteps. The majority of young girls having babies, the girls usually end up having babies at a very young age too. I, however, am one of the few that has learned from my own parents mistakes. I didn't want to end up like my mom, not like it's a bad thing. I just didn't want to be a statistic. And now here I am 37 years old, and still without any kids.